Hi

Hi, its has been a long time i dint write a blog... a year perhaps . and everything is different now.. 
Yeah , its different now ...

I gone in a Med school . and I dunno its a good thing of bad thing but i had actually finished my 1st year . Its was a horrible year . I fall , I success, I climb up and Fall again . I wonder am i a London Bridge ? why am I keep falling again . 

There are 2 king of people in this world . 
One , who have the courage to chase their dream , they work so hard and so hard, they don't care about what the others think cause they have some kind of believe ? i wonder ? I totally have no idea what they thinking as very unfortunately, I am the second kind of person . a Coward . I run away, I hide away from what that hurt me , Somehow I even locked up my memories because I am afraid of it , I am afraid of the young, stupid, foolish little girls that dunno anythings about the world. But somehow, its that my fault for doing those things? they are no one there to teach me either, I need to do everything myself , I need to figure all the things myself, and somehow, I dont even cry anymore.
I dont cry anymore because i know, even when i cry, no one will come to help me..

Its seem like is all my problem , that's y they r all leaving me ...
Am I so Unworthily to be Love,
Is that all my fault ?
I dunno what's wrong with me,
and I had suffered a lot , 
or, is it some kind of karma that I have to take it ,
or I am still being a stupid that dont know how to appreciate?
I dunno what should I do.
I am miserable ,
I am spoiled,
and I dunno how to fixed it ,

I dunno how many time I had screaming for help,
but what can I do accept saying it again and again?
I am scared, I am tired... 

and whatever , i dont care anymore ......

oh, yearh ! i am back ...... Having a 2 week holiday and now it's already the 2nd week..... after wasting my whole 1st week .... i still doesn't have any mood to study ..... the mood is so down .... tears keep on coming out at every moment, every second ..... i don't know what happened to me ...... i had these kind of felling always but this time isn't same as last time at all ...... something was trapped in my heart ....in the left hand side of my chest ..... so pain ..... i don't know what is it ... and i don't have the courage to discover it either ...

这样爱你你好可怕

是我說過分手以後要祝福大家
怎麼聽到你的喜訊我忽然靜下
我紅了眼睛黑著臉再不斷講話
你看在眼裡想到什麼何必問我
怎麼啦你還好嗎

你的快樂與我無關我就不快樂
我也失去繼續偽裝朋友的資格
我竟然希望他不夠好那就好了
你說不定會因此對我一直牽掛
這個我還值得你愛嗎

我虛偽 我慚愧 我嫉妒 你幸福
你這個傻瓜　不要逼我說謊話
愛一個人是佔有　一點都不偉大
我醜惡 我自私 我認了看著你　容不下他
蹋地死心　原來出於私心
我也覺得我好可怕 (好可怕)

所謂祝福原來只是在爾虞我詐
關係昇華只是欲望垂死的掙扎
我甚至想過萬一你們開始吵架
在我們之間就能留下一條尾巴
這個我還值得誰愛嗎

那麼愛你卻寧願你寂寞
像這樣的愛 好可怕 。。。

想自由

每個人都缺乏什麼　我們才會瞬間就不快樂　
單純很難　包袱很多　已經很勇敢　還是難過　

許多事情都有選擇　只是往往事後我才懂得　
情緒很煩　說話很衝　人和人的溝通　有時候沒有用　

或許只有你　懂得我　所以你沒逃脫　
一邊在淚流一邊緊抱我　小聲的說多麼愛我　
只有你　懂得我　就像被困住的野獸　在摩天大樓渴求自由　

一路守著追著美夢　踏上屋頂意外跌得好重　
不覺得痛　是覺得空　城市的幻影有千百種　

就算愛也會變冷淡　可是現在抱的你是暖的　
我不曉得　我不捨得　為將來的難測　就放棄這一刻　

或許只有你　懂得我　所以你沒逃脫　
一邊在淚流一邊緊抱我　小聲的說多麼愛我　
只有你　懂得我　就像被困住的野獸　在摩天大樓渴求自由

a whole new world !

Hi , i am back with a better mood ~ yap ~ a qiute good mood ..... finali realise that it is not time 4 me 2 depress anymore And ... it is no use at all for me 2 being depreese .. it's such stupid btw . haha ~~ mayB all of it is because the power of WONG CHUNG CHAk !!! yap ~ wowo !!! power of idol .... MAke me alive agian !!!!
huh ~~~ addited .... hope it is a good things ~ but still need 2 concentrated study these day !! YAp !!! Concentrate !!!! and feel the world ~ haha ~ i duno wat i m talking bout .... AND .... last pic ~~ sexy bosco !!!!! haha ~

yerh ... finali holiDAy !!! hahaha .... i tot i am happy .... but i am not .... AGian ??? .... yah ... agian ... i am like this .... so , what's the prob ... i am always sad ... and this is why i blog !!!! i am not like u all .... everyday happy ... dont say you r not ... at least when u r sad ... there will always be some1 beside you .... don't said you r also beside me ... because u R NOT !!!!!!!!! until now ... i am stil alone .... and i will foever alone ..... i am not angry ,..... and i know what are you thinking !!!!! dont use those kind of eyes and expression 2 look at me .... i am so SORRy ... but i .... you !!!

ya .... i get straight A's .... 6a+ , 2a. 2a- ...... i should be happy ... and Ya ... i am happy .... For ..... about few minutes ..... i am happy because it is straight A ??.... No .... i am happy because i don't have B .... but ... THE THRUTH is ..... i am not happy at all .... i only get 3k for scholarship ..... damn stupid me ..... stil thought that i am good .... still wasting my time 2 celebrate BUT the reality is .... WTH stupid result i am getting ..... i am stil stupid and still wasting my time and my mom money ..... i can see from her face .... my result is not realy good enough ..... she was expecting me get straight A+ ..... at least no A- ....... whats the diff between a- and b .... NO .... ntg diff .... THis is NOT straight A's at all !!!! and wtF happened to my Bio ..... i even dint get a+ for bio .... no no NO ..... stupid me ..... stupid .... stupid ....stupid.....