fianli i cried .... finali ...
finali i realise i am juz so stupid ...
finali i realise no matther how hard i tried ,
i stil cant get them ... them ALL ....
wth am i still dreaming for ?! ...
For getting hurt by them Agian and AGIAN ???!!!!
pls ... i pls you ... pls dont hurt me any more ....
pls dont playing with my heart any more .
my heart aready seriusly injurt ...
i cant affort any more ....
PLS .... pls ....

FAILED

i FAiLED agian .... FAILED FAILED FAILED .....
nevermind ... i was always a failer ....
i am too use to it now ...
until i even cant feel any sad anyMORE .....
thousand of tears is trapped in my eye, my heart and my soul ....
i have nothing now ....
and even me myself is NOTHING .....
no hope anymore ....
NO ... NOTHING ......

HELP !

how can i stop DRaWing ???!!!.....
i want 2 stop ! i realy want 2 stop it ..
but i CANT !!!! i CANT !!!!
i want 2 draw and i want 2 colour every single minutes in my life ....
how how HOW !!!!...........
da kar them aready stop drawing ,
started 2 get in 2 their college life but i just cant stop !!!!!
i even cant concentrate in my class ...
everything in my brain is drawing drawing and ...
DRAWING .....................................

Agian .... in taylor .. doin nothing .... keep on login and log out ...

fell so bored 2 do anything .....

urh .... i am confused these day ...

started 2 think about ... dream and future .... do i choose the right thing ????

i Hope i m .... and the truth is ...

i cant stop drawing these day .. i totali addited 2 drawing ...

and i m not social at all ... i tried .... but i juz tired of it ....

haiz .... listening 2 him ... i fell lik his life is so happy ...

all his homework is so interesting ....

i realy hope i could enter the same course with him ......

then i sure my life will be more happier then now x10000000 !!!! ...

haiz .... but how bout the future .... if i choose that road , will my future available ????

wat can i do .... juzt lik the poem .... t

he poetry choose the road that less ppl 2 walk 2 ...

But i had choose the road that most of ppl went to .....

okie .. i am a coward ....

i m affraid to chaise my Dream ....

i m in college now ang i m blog-ing ....

fell so weird but i m juz boring and stress ....

nwe place new thing ... i am so not use 2 it ... and now ..

evithing seem lik went wrong ....

no one i could tell 2 .. and i realy duno what 2 do ...

even my art .... i duno how long i still can be NOrmal ....

i juz fell so depresse and i want 2 cry ... but i CAnt ....

i dun hav any sholder ether ....

i am juz alone .... i miss u ...

all ......