Hi, its has been a long time i dint write a blog... a year perhaps . and everything is different now..
Yeah , its different now ...
I gone in a Med school . and I dunno its a good thing of bad thing but i had actually finished my 1st year . Its was a horrible year . I fall , I success, I climb up and Fall again . I wonder am i a London Bridge ? why am I keep falling again .
There are 2 king of people in this world .
One , who have the courage to chase their dream , they work so hard and so hard, they don't care about what the others think cause they have some kind of believe ? i wonder ? I totally have no idea what they thinking as very unfortunately, I am the second kind of person . a Coward . I run away, I hide away from what that hurt me , Somehow I even locked up my memories because I am afraid of it , I am afraid of the young, stupid, foolish little girls that dunno anythings about the world. But somehow, its that my fault for doing those things? they are no one there to teach me either, I need to do everything myself , I need to figure all the things myself, and somehow, I dont even cry anymore.
I dont cry anymore because i know, even when i cry, no one will come to help me..
Its seem like is all my problem , that's y they r all leaving me ...
Am I so Unworthily to be Love,
Is that all my fault ?
I dunno what's wrong with me,
and I had suffered a lot ,
or, is it some kind of karma that I have to take it ,
or I am still being a stupid that dont know how to appreciate?
I dunno what should I do.
I am miserable ,
I am spoiled,
and I dunno how to fixed it ,
I dunno how many time I had screaming for help,
but what can I do accept saying it again and again?
I am scared, I am tired...
and whatever , i dont care anymore ......
